Monday, 3 December 2012

Tis the Season

...................... to be jolly!

Well I admit up until now I have been a bit of a grinch and a humbug.

Being so far from your loved ones at Christmas and trying to get your head around the fact that it is Summer has left me feeling far from festive.

I skyped with my brother this morning, his home looked beautiful, cosy and twinkly. I recognised the garlands I had given him as we were not allowed to bring any decorations with us at all.

I don't know what happened.

I wasn't expecting it but as soon as I logged off. Huge, great big fat tears rolled down my face and would not stop.

This happens from time to time, the want and need to be close to someone you love but know you can't be is overwhelming.

No I am not complaining, I am just saying how it is for me and for every ex-pat on occasion- we all experience it and often when unguarded.

I realised for the first time in my entire life, I will NOT be spending any time with him over the Christmas season.

I went straight to my default position and called the Hubster.

As ever, he reminds me why I love him so much.

"Come on you, you love Christmas, it's normal to feel the way you do but lets be positive now" he soothed.

"Get yourself to the shops, buy a tree and decs and bring Christmas to our home, just like you do every year".

So I did.

It will be different.

But we can make it into a Christmas to remember for all the right reasons, no more humbug and a lot more fa la la la la!

You are not far away really because you are right here in my heart.


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